Chapter 15

After lunch, Sidney drove Karen back to the hospital and they both stayed for a little bit. Karen had brought back some food for her mom and actually was able to get her out of her dad's room to eat it in the waiting room. Karen sat with her dad as Sidney said he would stay with her mom.

"Is everything better between you and my daughter?"

"You knew we were having problems?"

"That is the one thing I treasure about my girls, they open up to me about everything. She said she was the one that cheated and took full responsibilitiy for it."

"Yeah she did. I didn't want to believe it at first but I knew something was happening when we kept having the same fight over and over again."

"I know deep down she wants kids and before you two got married she did mention that she couldn't wait to have a baby with you. I don't think her wanting to wait is what sparked the cheating it was because she couldn't get pregnant right away that prompted it."

"What do you mean?"

"She told me this in confidence and I am only telling you because she won't."

"Ok."

"Shortly after you guys were married, you were on a two week road trip I think. Anyway, she wasn't feeling well and went to the doctor. He ran some tests and she found out she was pregnant."

"She was pregnant?"

"Yes but after 6 days, she had cramps really bad and miscarried. She didn't tell you because it was so short lived she didn't want to get your hopes up and then kill them. About three months later, she got pregnant again but that one lasted longer...3 weeks I believe. She thought that maybe the first time was a fluke and the second one would be the one to last. Karen called me and said she was going to tell you but the phone call the next morning after you went to practice was not the one I wanted to hear. She miscarried again. It devastated her and I guess that's when she decided to just put it off for awhile."

Sidney sat there and tried to comprehend it all "she still could've told me. I would have helped her through it and understood better why she wanted to wait."

"She thought that if it happened twice, it would happen again and you would leave her for someone who could give you kids."

"Why can't she understand I don't want anyone else no matter what happens with us?"

"Because that's how she's always been. Growing up, if she couldn't please herself with school work or playing sports, it disappointed her and she figured it would disappoint every one else. She is passionate about so many things in her life and finding you upped that to a whole other level."

"I've noticed that about her. I mean, I've never doubted her love for me and knowing this won't change that either but I feel like I need to tell her I know."

"How about waiting until her dad leaves here and goes home. She'll have less on her mind if he's at home getting better."

"Ok, I will. Thanks for telling me."

"Anything for my favorite son-in-law" she said hugging her.

"I'm your only son-in-law."

"That's why you're my favorite." She offered a smile to Sidney before she got up and left the waiting room. He soon followed and went into the hospital room to be with Karen. They only stayed for another 20 minutes or so before leaving her parents alone. Sidney told her he would meet her at home as they left. Karen wondered where he needed to go but shrugged it off.

Karen had been home for about a half hour when she heard Sidney walk through the front door. She looked up from the tv and saw him enter the room.

"Where'd you go?"

"I needed to get these" he held up a dozen roses "for my beautiful wife."

"I don't think I've done anything to deserve flowers" she said as he handed them to her.

Sidney sat down beside her "please stop being so hard on yourself and realize we are going to be fine."

"I'm not being hard on myself Sid. I just can't forgive myself as easily as you did."

"Do you love me?"

"Yes, of course I do."

"Do you want to be with me?"

"Forever."

"Then you need to forgive yourself because it seems we love each other too much to keep this between us. Can you do that for us?"

"I think I can."

"Good" he said leaning in to kiss her. The kiss lingered and got more passionate the longer they stayed lip locked. Sidney broke the kiss and got up, holding out his hand for Karen to take. When she did, he pulled her up then went upstairs. As they got to the bedroom, Sidney wrapped his arms around her and continued what they started downstairs. Before long, both were undressed and in bed caressing every inch of skin visible. Sidney rolled them over so Karen was underneath him, spreading her legs to make the situation more comfortable. After a few minutes, Sidney plunged into her and Karen smiled inside realizing all was forgiven from him. He kept a slow pace that was more then sensual that had Karen moaning at the pleasures brewing inside of her. When Sidney felt they were both on the verge, he sped up to bring Karen over the edge first then joined her a few minutes later. He collapsed on top of her until their breathing slowed to normal. Sidney soon rolled off of Karen but pulled her to him as they fell asleep.

A few days later and Karen's dad was at home. She had gone by to be with him while her mom was at work. He didn't need fussed over, but she still needed to see he was going to be alright. When she got home later that day, she saw Sidney had dinner made for them and the table out on the back porch was set up with candles and flowers.

"I'm sure the guys would love to see you do this for me."

"I think they already know since they see how we are together in public. But of course what we show them in public is never what we do in private."

"And that's a good thing" Karen said with a smile "considering we could get arrested if that happened." Sidney just laughed as they sat down to eat. "So, is there hidden meaning in tonight's dinner?" she asked as they began eating.

"Why would you say that?"

"Because I know you. What's going on?"

"Your mom told me."

Karen had a feeling she knew what he was talking about but wanted him to actually say it "told you what?"

"About how you got pregnant twice and lost both of them. Why couldn't you just tell me instead of finding comfort in Jordan?"

"Going to Jordan wasn't until later when you started pressing the kids issue."

"Ok fine, but why couldn't you still tell me?"

"It was hard enough to go through, disappointing you twice wasn't what I wanted to face."

"I would have been disapoointed but at least we would have gone through it together."

"I know and I should've told you at least after the second one."

"Why not after the first time?"

"Because it only lasted a week and with it being that quick, I didn't think it needed to be mentioned. You were on a long road trip and I didn't think you needed to be burdened with it to distract you, even when you came home. The second one, yes I should've told you and I was going to but then I figured if I couldn't stay pregnant..."

"I'd want someone who could."

"At the time, yeah but I knew deep down it wouldn't be true. My mind wasn't where it needed to be after miscarrying twice and I am sorry."

"I know baby" Sidney took her hand in his "maybe next time will be the one that lasts...third time's a charm isn't it?"

Karen smiled at him "let's hope it is." They finished eating so they could enjoy the rest of their night together.